Star

Salam. Tonight is the last night im spending my time with tokwan here. Quite sad, but im also need to go back to my home. Sob sob. But what i wanna story here is about the stars. MashaAllah, really beautiful and fantastics. Of course every night i get the opportinuty to see the stars. The thousand of it really make me wanna stay at the road and laying there, truthly! Really wow. Adding with the light from the building that makes the sky really stunning(v?) With not so dark on colour. MashaAllah, the way Allah create the things really really beautiful. It cant be pictured with camera as i know the real scenery is the real in the eyesss.

Reflect

Yeah, really sad today. But i think i need reflect myself. I think im not supposed to come back home. Yes, really. Just stay at iium and just mereput by your own. Nobody cares about you. NOBODY. im really terasa hati. Yeah i know im sleepyhead, but when you ask me to do anything, i do it. But when you said that im pemalas, just tau tido, tak boleh diharap, it really hurt me. Really hurt. When i help you, i really do. When im ask a question to you, you dont answer it. I try to help you, but you really just see me as trash mybe..Allah, it really break my heart today. Supposed i really shouldnt be here. Thats okey if im not at home. Im just making people trouble, not helping at all. Im really feel tersisih. I know im not good at all in cooking, just lazy person who only know to sleep and sleep and sleep.
Give me strength ya Allah if this is kifarah for me. Give me calmness, reda and strength to go through with this. Send me away after my degree if it is the best for me. I do ask You, give me strength.

A little bit dissapointed

Not a little, but a big. Really big. As im really bad to get JPA scholar. Im frustrated with myself as i cant achieve at least 3.3 to get passed the JPA requirement. Seriously, really sad. But what can i do now, its all my fault. And i believe that, everyone has their own rezq that given by Allah. For time onwards, what can i do is just try my best in everything i do. Just finished what had i started and lets just forget the past. The other dream that i really hope, i can get is can work abroad. I donno, but i really wanna get experience working there. Hopefully, Allah will grant my wish. Ameen.

Lega, ungs2040

Alhamdulillah ya Allah. I managed to answer the question. Oh, no maybe not all im confident, but i really feel im ease during answer the question. Thank you Allah 😘😊

Donno

I donno wheather it is called mengharapkan balasan or not. Arghhh actually i cant compare myself with others. One thing that i can see is when they borrow or use mine, they never give anything back as a return. So thats why i donno whther it is as mengharapkan balasan or what. But most of it, when use my motor actually you mybe can refill the fuel sometimes. When i thought to not borrow to them, mybe it seem im kedekut but, i it really makes me nut when im thinking about it. Hm im usully will feel guilty if i use other person belonging, but do not give them any return. But i need to remind myself that dont expect anything from others, put it only to Allah. From Him only you can ask, or expect anything. Kbye

Waiting

I hate waiting. Donno why. Blergh!
Yes, mybe im not that punctual person, but if it state 1 pm, i'll there on that time. Yes, i am considering if it just 3,5 minutes late but if its already past quarter hour, that make me  angry. Please, if it told to be like that, make it like that. And after all, i pray that Allah give me more Sabr. Im also need to reflect what had i done. Yes, it all comes from me, again. If it happen to me for first time, okey i'll consider it.  After that, if it happen again i'll just be there after a few minutes, cause i know they also would not be there as the time stated. I try my best to be on time, and change the skeptical of 'janji melayu'. But if it happen like this, howw?! So, me myself need to change it first despite of just want others to make it first.  Kbye, need to sleep for a while.