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Assalamualaikum. This is new blog and new me, maybe. Haa takde la new me sangat as i think i'm still the same. Tapi berusaha untuk berubah menjadi yang lebih baik. Ting! Ni hanya permulaan as i'm already 21 years old. Makin tua you know dan perangai masih seperti teen. Act like your age and behave yourself okey. That's all.

How my life begins at university.

 

Assalamualaikum. I’m already got the result and guess what? 2 failed. Andddddd I don’t know what I feel at that time. Feelingless maybe. Of course gpa drop like a bomb and hit me like crazy. When I checked, I just ignore it and when I’m about to sleep all the things across my mind. Aku tak tahu apa yang aku belajar time tu. Rasa macam semuanya useless. Tak kuat nya aku time tu. Sad and can’t think anything untuk pujuk diri. Esok nya lagi la, time tu pergi bank tabung haji sebab mak nak kelurkan duit. Mak nak kelurkan 400 je, aku tulis jadi 4000.the heck! Kena masukkan balik, dah la kena amek number semua, nasib la ayah sabar je time tu. Hari tu jugak ramai pulak makcik pakcik mintak tolong aku fill in boring transaction. Harap semuanya betul la apa yang aku isi. Seriously I can’t think properly. At home, I think and reflect back about myself and slowly try to accept what had I got. REDHA. Not everyone can accept it, including me. Sabar nya orang tu adalah sewaktu ditimpa dugaan. Saat tu jugak dia redha dan terima apa yang Allah beri. Tapi aku? Payah nya. Hak Allah dah sepenuhnya aku tunaikan? Usaha aku adakah sehabis mungkin? Not at all. Aku lalai. Yang tu merupakan faktor utama aku gagal. Yes I’m failed to plan, thus get such result. What you expect to get if you just focus in class and do not do any exercise? You are not a genius person. Everything is all about efforts. Malas dan rajin yang membezakan. Bila dah kena repeat, banyak benda yang berubah. Firstly, of course result. Obviously you MUST got high gpa for next sem. DEAN LIST at least. Yeah, I’m looking for it. That’s my target for this sem to increase my cgpa. Don’t look others. They already have theirs. Like now, I’m the only one that need to repeat the subject. Not only one, but two. What do you expect? Need to have 19.5 credit hours, need to take short sem, no more 3 months holidays, no more excessive sleeps, movie or what so ever. SACRIFICE. The fruit of success is sweet is it? So, I have to endure the bitter of sacrifice. Sedarkanlah aku ya Allah saat aku terleka  dan terlalai. Aku tak layak untuk jadi contoh, just don’t look high to me. And tomorrow morning I will go to kl. Just a short holidays I think. And I’m not in mood at all because of the result. Give me strength Allah. There is a reason behind everything. Jagalah Allah, Allah jaga kamu.

                                                                                                                                          23:48, 29JAN15

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